Ahh where to begin. I was pregnant for the very first time with our son! I generally had a great overall pregnancy experience. I was working full time at a school and we were so very excited. I had zero symptoms from the beginning. I did spot occasionally in the first trimester, which was very scary but all seemed to be okay! We couldn’t wait to see what we were having at the 20 week ultrasound and I didn’t wanna do a ton of blood work for the Nipt testing so I ordered an online gender kit called “sneak peek” and we found out at 9 weeks in we were having a special little boy!
I instantly knew how I wanted to decorate your room. I chose a blue bear theme. We were graciously given an old crib from uncle clint that your nana and pappy had bought them to use with their three boys. We Painted the walls, and I spent every single day in your room until you arrived anxiously awaiting your arrival. I was nervous, it’s so scary to have a baby especially your first. I had never been pregnant before everything was so new to me and I’m so happy I had your dad to help me go through this experience.
Becoming a mom was always my goal in life. I had three goals. Becoming a wife, becoming a mom and living a happy life with my family. I’ve got all three. I am set for life! I didn’t know what it took to be a mom and everyone said it would just click. In the beginning of newborn life I wouldn’t say it clicked as much as it was fight or flight for you. I wanted to be around you at all times. I couldn’t leave your side. I was obsessed with your every move. I didn’t know what I was doing but I tried my best to think I know I did.
April came around and the world shut down. Schools and businesses closed, people weren’t allowed to leave their homes, toilet paper became sparse and you could forget about trying to find any disinfectant cleaner. Everyone started to hoard items and it was hard for the people like us to get what we needed. On top of this crazy epidemic your dad quit his job of 12 years due to a lot of reasons. That’s another story I’ll post sometime. So both your dad and I aren’t working and we are 7 months pregnant. It was a scary time. At this point in time no one knew much about Covid so we didn’t truly know what to think of it.
We were told no one was allowed in the hospital with us when we delivered you. We had to wear a mask every where we went. Stores, appointments and gas stations. Our maternity photoshoot was cancelled due to Covid and I couldn’t get anyone to take new born photos of you. It was too much of a risk for anyone. Your dad took maternity photos of us! He did so good.
The world was shut down and I was terrified of contacting Covid because I didn’t want to risk your life, I didn’t want you taken away from me at birth if I had Covid. I had read so many articles where that had happened. We stayed home the last 3 months on pregnancy and didn’t do much of anything. I wanted to make sure I was the very first thing you saw when you came into this world. We went out on daily walks and spend time outdoors. The world began to separate with opinions and facts. It was a scary time. How selfish of us to being such an innocent child into this world of hate? Life isn’t butterflies and rainbows, my wish is to lead you to believe this as a child but with age I hope to mature you with reality and structure. You are already a strong boy and I have no doubt you can make it through this heartless world of hate.
No visitors were allowed in the hospital so when we got home we had nana and pappy dog sitting for us already home. Now the story really begins and I can’t wait to fill you in.
Love mom
Life, children and marriage 